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So this last week has been..... fun. *sarcasm* I live in an area of Houston, Texas, that was hit by hurricane Harvey and I had to evacuate my home. My husband, sister, and I had to take our 4 dogs and cat to a shelter. We all didn't like it too much, but we managed. Now we're back home and the worst from the hurricane and rain are almost behind us. There IS another hurricane that could potentially hit our area again, but I really hope not.

I haven't been able to do much art for about half a month now, because of the hurricane and I was sick a few weeks ago. I had/have so much I want to do, so I'm gong to be working on it all in September. I do have at least one commission I need to post here and probably more art that I can't think of right now, because of stress.

My birthday is this month too~! On the 18th, I'll be old.. I like birthdays, but hate getting older. OTL

I might make a better/longer journal later. It's almost 7am and I should sleep.

I hope everyone is well and safe. I'm off to bed.
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I've been trying to work on a bunch of art and I'll most likely post a sketch dump soon. I'll be updating my commission sheet sometime at the end of the month too. :3

I'm also hosting a DTA (Draw-To-Adopt) on my Instagram, if anyone wants to enter. Here's a link to my Instagram: www.instagram.com/oliwollyocto…

That's about it for now.
I hope everyone is doing well.
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For the first time in 11 years, my username has changed. It's now Oliwollyoctosaurus (Yes, it's a mouthful, but it represents me better).

Thank you :iconmarmarmia:! <3
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(I posted this on my Tumblr and felt like I should post it here.)

Around 9:30pm tonight will mark 9 years that my dad hasn’t been in my life or in this world. I know it hasn’t been exactly 9 years, it could me more, it could be less, with how the Earth spins, leap years, and all that technical stuff, but that doesn’t matter when it comes to what happened on April 17th, 2007.

I lost my father to a brain tumor. At the time, we thought he was going to pull threw, but it was his time to go. It hurt. A lot. It still hurts. A LOT. When you lose someone close to you or maybe just someone in general, you never get over it. The pain just dulls and some days are better then others. Some days, you just want to curl up into a ball and disappear. Other days, you can stand strong and say “Hey, they’re gone, but they wouldn’t want me to be upset. They would want me to keep going.”

I didn’t know if I would actually write this out, but I feel like I have to, for myself and for people who have lost someone or who will lose someone. I don’t know what I want to say, so I’m just letting my fingers type. Sorry, for any typos.

It’s hard, so hard to lose someone. Whether they’re close to you or you only knew them for a minute. They were still in your life for a period of time, which makes them part of your life. If this were a perfect world, no one would lose anyone to disease or untimely deaths, but this world isn’t perfect. It can be unbearable cruel at times. Death knows no age, gender, race, etc. Death has a job to do and Death does it well.

It’s okay to grieve for as long a you want or need. I grieve in different ways each year on this date, or on my dad’s birthday, or even just randomly throughout the year. Next year, I might be a huge ball of tears or I might be strong enough to go out to dinner with my husband and tell people about my dad. Who knows? It’s okay to do what you feel you need to do and if that’s staying in bed for a while to just cry, that’s perfectly fine.

The important thing to remember is that people aren’t gone unless you let them be gone. There will always be memories and things to remind people of their existence. I have a plastic Asian dragon no my wall that I bought from an estate sale a couple weeks ago. I’m 100% sure the previous owner died before the things in his house were sold. That dragon is a continuation of his life. All the things that other people bought, whether they believe it or not, continue that man’s life. It might sound silly or childish to other people, but that’s what I believe. You only allow people to truly die, if you let them die.

I don’t expect people to read this, but thank you so much if you did. I just needed to get this out and let people know that it’s okay to grieve and it’s okay to feel what you feel when you lose someone. No one is truly gone.

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I'm not sure how many of my followers are still active, but if I offered a few point commissions, to get myself a core membership for a while (just to change my name), would anyone be interested? I haven't posted much of my current work, but I can post more, if people want to see my current. I don't even know if people are going to see this journal. Oh well. XD
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